Wreck
Ah you should’ve seen me. Hopeful, dreamy, fearless, happy.
Before everything happened I wasn’t this crappy. I mean…
I’ve always been fighting and I’ve always been manic
but I guess going through that made me stuck in a panic.
Now it feels like I’m drowning and it feels like I’m lying
cause I’m telling myself there are some silver linings.
But my brain won’t believe me and it’s obvious I’m dying
when I beg my own eyes to stay open and shining.
Ah, you should’ve met me.
Back when I didn’t miss me.
Back when I knew my hands would never deceive me.
Ah you should believe me! I wasn’t this wreckage! I wasn’t this angry!
And I’m sure that this girl is here hiding and faintly
she hugs me to sleep while I cry like a baby
cause none of this matters if I keep on leaving
the one single being who’s been there every weaving
of strings that I’ve tangled and fixed in each sitting
and she’s there to remind me I must keep on breathing
because she’s also grieving.
Ah you should’ve seen her.
But I still hear her whisper.
So I know that you care and I know I am scared
to tear this apart even though when I’m bare
all the heat and the cold
all the lies that consoled
will leave to make way to someone who will stay.
I would build me apart just to meet her again.