An ode to my mid 20’s

I’m starting to lose track of everything
Time is not there anymore
everything just happens all at once
I’m afraid to close my eyes now
because whatever I see just drips away by its corners
And what if I miss it or lose it
because it’s not happening anymore

It’s like when you see something so beautiful
your eyes start deceiving you
Abruptly one eyeball dries up and the other gets blurry
blink once twice thrice but do it fast
there’s people in line
Catch the glimpse of whatever astonishment you’re seeing
and move on

what if all this time the one I was trying to get over
was that version of myself that existed with you?
and so it was never, and probably never will be, you

Lately I can’t find a place where I feel safe anymore
No house and no street, where was home before?
Remember to breathe it and you’ll lit a light
’cause the monsters in your dark are scariest to fight

It’s clearer by the minute how they walk around
carrying lighters and flashlights
and you’re that antique mirror
the smoke comes out their heads when they realize

Stop for a second and wonder if you’re guilty
of telling me to savor each crumb of an hour
only because you didn’t ask for salt on that special last meal
I’ll take mine sunny side down, please

but I’ve engraved in my mind the instructions
of how to turn off the lights so I can feel well rested

And suddenly this place is darker but I don’t fear anymore
the shadows realized I’m not as bad as they thought
outside the vibe is foggy but revealing in truth
but it’s the same room I’ve been living in through all my youth
it’s the same room

it is the same room